Alain Loves You

I promise

Everytime I see you.

-Especially now

yesterdayshuttingdown:

^ (the night we met John Mayer)

Alain leaves to Berklee School of Music in less than a few hours and I can’t express how much he’s gonna be missed. The weird thing about it all was that saying goodbye wasn’t the hard part. The hard part was knowing that he’s not going to be around the corner anymore. I’m glad to say I learned as much as i did from him, having Alain as a close friend for the past four years really allowed me to develop a lot of my own character. I don’t mean to reminisce in a morose “he died and is gone forever”-way however i do feel i must say some of the best memories i have of my teenage life are shared with him. Together we helped each other develop our own tastes in music and in shared amazing experiences such from walking down Miami Beach and laughing at the guy who tried to sell us “Krypti!Krypti!Krypti!”  to waiting outside a concert for 2 hours in hopes of meeting John Mayer(we did.) It was with Alain that i felt i had the best chemistry in writing music with and if it weren’t for him i probably wouldn’t have begun writing music in the first place. I find it extremely hard to believe he’s already leaving because in a way, i feel as if i should be going with him. I guess in a way i am. I don’t think i’ll ever forget the text message he sent me when he got accepted. He said that going to Berklee didn’t mean it would just be for him. that in a way he was doing it for his best friends like Ana and I, who in a way would be present within every note of his music, in that moment i cried. Its moments like those that you begin to realize how much of an impact two people can have on each others lives.  Maybe one day i’ll catch up and truly pursue my passion for fixing and mod’ing instruments. I know it’s extremely cliche to believe in the fact that everything happens for a reason, but in truth, perhaps this “international-business” major of mine will lead me in the direction i need to go. sometimes the path we take to get to one goal ends up taking us to the one we’re actually meant to go. The fact that Alain didnt leave earlier may seem like a “waste of time” to some, but to me the last two years we spent jamming, writing, and just spending time together mean so much to me. They were the moments i needed someone to truly understand me, and the moments he honestly did. 

I know we’ll never stop being friends,

but i’m going to miss having all those moments with you.

the moments where i cried because you wouldnt stop making me laugh.

the moments where your advice changed my perspective of the world around me.

I wish you the best of luck in Berklee 

I love you Brother.

-B!.

It’s not saying much to say I have the best friends anyone could care for.

-I love you too, brother.

I cleaned out my desk. It all seems so close now. Moved all cables and devices and stacked them together in a neat pile that whispers “I’m leaving. We’re leaving.” I never realized how dusty it was. Cleaned it up. Post up my laptop. So empty; Simplistic. And yet, so real and familiar as it replaces the big presence of an HP tower, keyboard, and 20 in. monitor. All electronics are go. Here’s to yesterday shutting down.

By the way, I’m watching Sex Spirit on Showtime 2. Powerful.

-I love you

You can clap. But don’t clap too hard. Or you’re gay.

True?

-I don’t love you like that